ee-minology - story of a small gurl

wHaT is LurVE?

as i listen to the songs blasting from my laptop, i can't help but wonder, what is love actually? of course its a feeling shared by individuals which makes them do super shit azz crazee stuff for another,but has anyone really asked themselves.. what is love and i don't mean just puppy love but real love kinda love? love.. the feeling that ur parents have for u even though u are a huge living parasite in their household... but that's different, they made you so they HAVE to lurve u! else u shud consider calling childrens' aid! seriously!

everyone has their own quest for love, searching high and low with different criteria for that special spark between themselves and another individual. its a truly remarkable feeling if u ask me,think,ain't it weird for 2 total strangers (non related) to come together and start caring for each other like a parent would do?(well if they are related they'd have retard kids but thats not my point today) however, the Lord on the other hand, claims to love every single individual unconditionally, but He is LORD, and who are we? we are mere mortals, i can't just wake up one day and say "hey mr postman i love you!" he'd be like "WTF!???"

love makes u do utterally stewpid things for another, its a tingling feeling felt between 2 individuals, the urge to share and to care, to be able to feel for another, to understand and to comfort, to enjoy the company of each other and to share intimacy. can't just grab anyone rite?wouldn't be nice (correct me if i am wrong).. It's a feeling which brings ultimate happiness and also despair because when there is love, there are also other "not so positive" feelings involved, jeolousy, anger, hurt etc etc.. its heart breaking when u start to love someone and not have that feeling returned or when u have given your heart to someone and the other prefers to give it to another after a while.. noooooo....total nightmare for most ppl!so why then would ppl plunge their life's happiness for sumthing so trivial and so unstable?but then again.. without it.. would life be complete? the answer for most normal ppl "no" and for those crazee singles..dun bs and go "i don't need no love, i will survive" normally these ppl end up dying alone in their apartment/house with the discovery only 2/3 days later maybe mauled by their hungry pets left behind.. i know.. ewww

as for me,honestly, i don't know wut is love.i am still on my journey of self discovery. had a few relationships in the past, but i still cannot define true love. definitely i dun wanna end up alone being eaten by my own pet shih tzu..eww again, but for now.. i really don't know.. i must admit, not only do i look young but I STILL am young.. but for those single ppl out there.. i believe WE will find that special someone one day and will finally understand the meaning of true love in our own different way...

posted by eemin @ 10:49 PM 1 comments

Who the HeLL is tHis smAll gurl...

who am i..?this is still the very same question i ask myself till today.. well of course i can just answer u.. "hie i am ee-min/elaine/elaine yeap" but then again.. who am i really? well for me life is about self discovery, finding out who u are,what u like, who u enjoy 2 be with... but have u really asked urself.. who are u deep down inside? well since young.. i must admit i have changed many many groups of friends, trying to suit into various crowds, finding the comfort zone everyone yearns for.. so in answer to the title/question posted.. I am just a small small small gurl in a big big world.. and here's my life's story..

one day as the Lord stared down from the heavens above.. he thought to himself.. "its a perfect creation" He was pleased, as He got about doing his daily stuff.. listening to prayers.. He heard tiny humble voices of a young couple from below "please grant us a lil baby gurl,not too naughy,not too nice" It was then that an inspiring thought came to him.." huh wut's with this couple?? maybe i'll create a lil sumthing to whoop up their lives a bit.." carefully he picked up some clay and started moulding.. hmm its a gurl rite.. so he added some sugar and some spice, but unlike the way the professor made the power puff gurls God thought "hmm maybe not with everything nice.. think i'll add a lil sarcasm, and cynism.. mishieve and naughtyness.... now for the look. lets give her biggie eyes to at least pretend to look innocent when she is not, a rather mid sized nose to sniff ard for pranks and of course a mouth to complete the face" with all His heart and love, He moulded and moulded adding the right ingredients to make a lil gurl every parents desire.. finally He added wings and a halo.. waitaminute.. wut the heck, He made a lil angel.. noooo mistake dy.. knowing that he wud distort the lil clay creation if he removed the wings and halo, He clipped the wings and made the halo invisible.. and only visible to the purest of heart.. Startled as He heard a cry of distress from below..He dropped the lil clay figurine.. "nooooooo" sadly He picked it up tenderly.. it was ruined.. the lil figurine was smaller that it already was, the surface not soo smooth anymore.. He was truly devastated.. and to make up for the mishap, God gave the lil figurine a bigger voice box to make up for the lack of height, a friendlier face, and humour so the lil gurl will be able to take jokes and luffter bout herself.. finally pleased.. He gently held the figuring to his mouth and with all his heart and love he blew life into it.. and He sent her down to earth ... hoping she would bring joy and laughter to this new couple he had blessed and to the ppl whom she will encounter.. in short.. the Lord's baby angel was born...

posted by eemin @ 6:00 AM 0 comments