ee-minology - story of a small gurl

Who DO u PiCk???

a guy who is always there or someone u really feel for?? would you rather end up with a guy who loves u more than u love him ? or wud you go for the one who makes ur heart skip a beat?

true, many ppl would naturally go for the first option the safe one.. the guy who is sweet, always there, loves you more than u love him.. but is that enough? However its natural for ppl to pick the safest choice. I however would like to pick the latter.. why? hmm not that i am a sadist who enjoys torturing myself or that i prefer not to be loved.. i do enjoy all the attention given etc etc.. but i have decided to take a step back and review the situation.

PIcking the First type :
ok true, you need not go through the hard heart stopping, uncertainty part of pre-dating. You already know wut is coming your way, u know he likes u, u even know ur answer, u have time to plan ur answers. U finally accept, u're ok.. you feel fine generally, its nice to have someone fuss over u, someone who is always there, adores you more than anything.. but is that satisfying for yourself? You start to notice little little things about the person that somewhat annoys you,.. you ask urself is this the right choice.. ya it mite seem cuz he's the best catch.. he's nice etc etc.. but is that all?

Picking the 2Nd type :
For me its very important to pick someone who makes my heart skips a beat.. i know many would tell me that its nonsense, non practical and superficial. Chemistry however plays an important role, i need the spark the feeling b4 you really start dating, the increase in heart rate, the nonsensical things you say or do, u try to impress and u wake up hoping and praying the other will feel the same. and when u finally get the person, u will feel a burst of happiness that surges through your veins and all you wanna do is shout out to the world! the little simple things that he does sends you to the moon, throws u over the stars and makes you sleep soundly like a baby through the night.. Even the hardest long distance relationship does not seem like a problem. The sound of his voice is absolute music to your ears. I tend not to mind going the extra mile for this special person, cook, knit, travel, impress.. but when things go wrong.. or u have an unhappie moment, u can look back at the beginning and think of the beautiful moments and rmb, you picked this person.. and the next step is still yours somehow.. u can either tell urself its ur choice and stick to it.. or.. kick urself silly for u can't blame anyone, YOU MaDe the choice...

these are just my views.. u need not agree with me.. anyhow life is not a bed of roses, fairy tales can still exist if u persue it.. non-believer of romantic movies and fairy tales i might be.. but undeniably i am still waiting for my very own fairy tale ending......

posted by eemin @ 4:53 PM 1 comments

a malaysian gurl in scotland

well actually edinburgh, anyway when i arrived here in edinburgh, i was rather indifferent i'd say, not too happie not too sad.. its my first choice anyway.. so rather sceptical, still scorn from the fact that i was ripped away from my comfort zone and my family back in epo..

somehow i tried to look on the bright side but it seems that this places hates me.. i didn't get my keys for the accomodation cuz well i guess certain forms a) not sent out b) lost in the mail c)misplaced .. so i had to walk a distance b4 i cud get my keys.. and when i opened my room.. to my horror it was kinda like the worst room in the flat, it was looonnng believe me.. lonnng and narrow! its like they cornered off a part of the hallway and sed "oh my gawd we have not enuff rooms,lets just turn this part of the hallway into a room" (bugger) hmm i tot.. nvm.. whooosshhhaaa try to rearrange the furniture a bit to make it more roomy? well i did that.. except that the bed was too long to be placed next to the window and when i arranged my desks, i realised the room had weird angles! if the desk aligns with the window, it does not allign with the walls.. get the pic? so there are spaces ard the room where furniture just can't stick to the wall?!!

was already cursing when i further realised the next day that the darn bank system takes darn long to get sorted out!nvm sort out uni stuff? yuppers b4 i left, i sent my forms which i received 2 days 4 days b4 my flight.. soo had to courrier.. to my dismay that after a few days, my friends received their matrix cards wayy earlier than me even though i sent it in earlier.. so i was ermm id-less for more than a week! the uni also kinda forgot me? they sent out schedules to everyone regarding the transfer week except me.. so was wondering ard like a dummy for one day. gosh.. had so much trouble with passwords ard here as well.. i did not get mine! wut the heck!so cud not access the uni website etc etc.. the internet access drove me nuts as well.. we apparently have to get online to register with some user name and password given, send em an email, wait for 2 working days.. then get internet access in ur room.. crazee system! well i did that with sheer tolerance .. so registered together with 2 other friends.. the next day, they had internet access and me? none! soon, other ppl registered.. and they had internet access as well! ARGH>> i had to call up the internet ppl darn darn a lot of times and was told that i'd get mine very soon.. tipu me laa i had to call the next day and demand for it ...aiii finally in the afternoon i had internet access.. yohh wut an experience!

well soon,. things got settled.. one by one.. slowly.. and eventually.. hmmm tough luck.. but i am still staying in my tiny wee crammy hallway-like room.. and crossing my fingers for better luck to come by...

posted by eemin @ 4:35 PM 0 comments